where to begin?

I am ready to begin - to change to move forward -
I have felt quite stuck lately - I found this old list that I wrote a while ago about what I was going to do when I finished my thesis -

I still years later have not finished my thesis - I feel a little stuck -
I think I have allowed myself to fall asleep -

my relationship is not great (my fault as much as anyones) - my life has diminished -
work is great but all else has suffered - it is time to wake up - to be fabulous to dream - to move to create to love -

CHANGE

Sunday, February 25, 2007

things I am going to do when I am done my thesis Things I am going to do once my thesis is done aaahhhh - yet another list (that will be a work in progress) stop by again to see what I have added.... 1. finally finish my training and become a yoga instructor (go back to India and spend some time there) 1.5 watch way more sunrises and sun sets from my beautiful property 2. make all my Chirstmas presents instead of buy them - I will start with cookies and lovely smelling bath salts. 2.5 stay in my pajamas all day - smoke something - do some gardening, go for a long walk with my pup, cook some yummy vegetarian food, have a long bath, and just enjoy my log cabin and the beautiful space I am so lucky to have. 3.. Take a painting course or an art course of some sort- it has been a long time - I have not been painting nearly enough - and I need some new inspiration- glass bead making would be cool. 3.5 show my baby and my darling little lady that I love them (and all my freinds for that matter) in more creative ways and more often. Make more of an effort. 4. learn how to kiteboard and base jump- get way better at surfing - and travel to tons more places to do all of these things - 4.5 spend much more time in nature - spend all day in the ocean - catching waves - watch the sun rise and the sun set. 5. get my Canadian Ski patrol certification 5.5 spend a lot more time naked 6. join a meditation group 6.5. Take up POTTERY again - especially hand building mugs and tea pots for everyone I know 7. train for a triathalon or two - dates are picked one up north one in van this summer 8. travel travel travel 9.pick up a musical instrument again - its been years - I once knew how to play the piano, guitar, flute, sax, and a few others. 10. learn how to salsa dance - and drum 11. work in Africa again 12. remember how much I love cooking - bake and cook from scratch instead of living on green tea and melba toast 13. actually have the time to cultivate meaning full friendships 14. do a phd in medical anthro 15. take some counselling courses and training - get some practical work expereince in social work or counselling (I get really sick of being in my head all the time). 16. become a documentary film maker - bringing cool academic critical theory to the masses through critical looks at all kinds of things in the world - locally to internationally and making the connections. 17. starting a burlesque troope - that would be very very fun - 18. photography - oh photography - helps me capture and look for the beauty and magic in every day life and things 19. join Alpine Canada and do lots of ice climbing, and hiking, and back country skiing 20. also join the volunteer fire department and search and rescue 21. volunteer with a service that gets me face to face with people I am helping 22 do much more climbing and hiking and scrambling 23 do fun things with my daughter - take another road trip with her - keep her out of school and have a mom and maya day -or week - or more. more to come - now back to my thesis